Saturday, March 13, 2010

So I need to explain in more detail how our referral call effected my emotions and the remainder of my Expo West (Natural Foods Trade Show) experience.
I received the call from Amanda at 5:45 pm on Thursday, March 11th 2010. The call would change my life! I took in eventually everything that Amanda said to me that day. Mebrate was a tiny but healthy looking baby girl, that she was 5.5 pounds and 18.5 inches long as well as many other details that over the past few days I have lost.
I was standing in the Anaheim Convention Center- booth 4052 setting up my companies booth, as I hung up the phone I looked at Patty and Stephanie and said "I just got my call, that was my call." Just then my other co-workers, Wayne, Curt and Troy walked up. They all just stopped because I stood there frozen just looking at them. And I said again, "That was my call!" Everyone just looked at me like I was crazy... "My call, for my little girl, I have a little girl!"
Everyone started to run and hug me all at once, they screamed and I started to get emotional. I was dying to run back to my hotel room, I wanted privacy! I wanted to see my baby girls face and read all about her, but I couldn't. I had to put my emotions aside and finish my work... but all I could think of was running!
The past two days have been a blur. Steph and Patty have been very supportive with my emotional up and down highs. Thank you!
I really just want to be home- with Jason and his calm support. With my family who have been so amazing through all of this. My sisters who are dealing with my constant phone calls since my referral.
To a certain extent, I feel like my referral call was passed over because I haven't been able to focus on it. On the other hand I will always have the memories and support of my friends.
Be well and strong baby girl! Your biological mother is looking down on you and will forever be your guardian angle. I will never be able to fill that void, but I will be the best mommy I know how and promise to love you forever!